i think their might be something wrong with me, all i want is someone to love. im 22 and still never had an "official" girlfriend, my friends think im lucky but they don’t what it feels like to have no one love you back…
when i was 17 i lost my virginity to a friend of mine in the back seat of my car. we were just joking and talking and some how i asked her if she wanted to have sex, but i wasn’t serious, she said she wanted to, so i did. we were both very spontaneous people. trust me, this is something that im not proud of, even though i don’t believe that guy’s can be virgins(guy’s don’t have hymens), i do believe in the idea and i didn’t want that experience to be my first, it was very awkward, i didn’t know what i was doing, i never even kissed her once
when i was 19, my best friend invited two girls we knew very well to my house for some drinks. just like every other high school girl i’ve met(no offense, but very true), they both got very drunk and started to puke. my friend dropped off one girl at home and went home himself. i let the other girl sleep at my house because her parents would freak out if she went home drunk. i stayed by her side until she was done puking, then told her she could sleep on my couch, but she wanted to sleep on my bed. we slept at different ends facing away from each other, every once in a awhile i felt her moving closer to me, this went on for about an hour until our butts were touching, she turned around and put her arms around my hips, then i turned around and kissed her. after that we stayed up like 6-7 hours making out and doing everything except sex. she was a very fun and wild girl too, but i felt wrong doing all this stuff while she was drunk, i was too but i was rational i knew i shouldn’t have done it but she seemed very "into me". the next day she admitted she liked one of my other friends, i felt lead on.
2 years later i was in a relationship that probably lasted about 2 weeks. i knew this girl very well and always loved hanging out with her. at this stage in my life (21) i was starting to lose my shyness towards girls, i felt i needed someone of the opposite sex to talk to. we got along very good and whenever she saw me after a couple months she would always seem very enthusiastic to be with me, i really liked her energy. one night we were both very hungry and went to a diner, when we got there it was closed, completely out of nowhere i just kissed her. we drove to a park and started to make out, i told her that i really liked being with her and a bunch of other things that i don’t have time to get into. we saw each other pretty much every day until she slowly stopped picking up her cellphone. i also slowly stopped calling her back, i didn’t want her to think that i was creepy but i did want to know why she lost interest. we went on adventures, talk, and kiss, it was good times, i never did anything sexual with her in fear that she would think that im using her. i wasn’t
a month ago my best friend introduced me to his new girl he was seeing, she had brought a friend. we had a lot of fun drinking and playing board games, i asked the other friend if she wanted to go rafting with me the next day and she agreed. i felt comfortable with this girl from the second i looked into her eyes, she was always smiling and she was very shy, i could tell by her body language that she liked me. the next day we went rafting together and i kissed her, it was great we started to make out on our tiny one person raft.i tried to hang out with her as much as i could before she went back to school later that week. after that i would either visit her or she would come down to visit me. the first time we she came down we had sex in my room, i tried to resist but i couldn’t, she really turned me on. three weeks later she’s telling me that she might still have feeling for one of her ex-boyfriends and that she really liked being with me allot. she was confused,completely unbiased, i told her to take her time and really decide who she would be happier with. today i found out that i should stop giving advice. she picked the other guy. i really do want her to be happy, but i didn’t think she would actually pick him, he cheated on her and was a complete asshole to her.i think she is too nice of a person, she deserves something better, even if it’s not me.
so now i’m confused, i always thought that women wanted to be in a relationship more then men but im starting to notice im wrong.i don’t understand whats wrong with me, not to sound conceited or pompous, but girls and even some guy’s(no homo) think i’m an attractive person, i’m interesting, i’m always doing something adventurous like mountain biking, walking in the woods, playing guitar, making art, or anything except for watching TV or wasting my time playing video games(i don’t even have a cell phone). im social, very easy to talk to, more avant-garde (im a pisces)with a touch of down-to-earth-ism. i always listen more th
hmm.. this is so hard to answer not knowing you.
describing your sexual escapades doesn’t really help anyone get the picture of "you"
i think some/most of those women in your life simply didn’t want to hurt you so they left the situation as is…I’m sorta guilty of it myself when i was younger and didn’t know better of course.
i would say that you may be..a bit sluttay ? i know thats a hard concept to grasp being a guy an all but honestly.. don’t give it up so easily! I know you’re horny but you want them to want you right ? most girls love the chase… give us enough to keep us interested though!
don’t worry about being single. thats when you’ll find someone. when you least expect it! live life and let it all fall into your lap. life has a funny way of doing that anyways.
i done edited this crap 3 times that alone makes it worth best answer?! 
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